sheryl crow - kesilapan kesukaan aku

happy birthday fifi.
why? well.. you know the date today. 21-2-12. but that's not important. what's important is the thing i'm about to type here. the mistakes that i had made recently. lots of big things happened in these few days and all the atonement i received that had made me a better man than before - alhamdulillah.

maybe they were just some small errors. but being a fifi myself, i take 'em seriously jeah. to tell you ere, on that day, i just took my father's cellphone and just gave a call to a boy and i acah je cakap nak bakar rumah mak bapak dia kalau dia tak bayar hutang. huhu. tu je.

small shit only right? yeah but the consequences were quite big. it ended a relationship yo.
it had also made me more matured. that night happened so fast. just like that and to think of it, i'd just smile bitterly and be grateful for the redemption i've got. everything happens for a reason.

another one. i couldn't remember the exact date, i worked night shift on that day. i was quite late that maghrib and the prayer room was already full with the muslimins. so i just took my wudhu' (yes i like to use wudhu' instead of ablution because ablution sounds poisoned.. haha ok and i choose the word poisoned here for a reason but that's not the case now) and then i just wait until they finished the job. the imam of the group that time was ayub. after ayub had settled with the zikr and doa and shaking hands between us, without thinking twice, i called him and said "eh yub, tadi tu engkau baca tu blakang tu kena ada bunyi sabr...." concerning the end of al-Asr that he recited earlier in the prayer.

"kena bunyikkan hurof r kat blakang tu.. ehh hurof ra.. bukan watawaa saubis sab. sabr" ok done. dia angguk.

so after i finished my prayer, i went back to my process to check what's left for me from the morning shift. later on inside the process, faizal called me "eh fifi, aku ada benda nak tegur ni".
i was like "ok. apende?". "tadi tu aku rasa cara kau tegor ayub tu salah la. kau tak patot tegor dia depan makmum laen. mungken engkau boleh panggel dia kejap. time korang berdua baru ah kau cakap. kita tak tau perasaan dia. mesti dia malu. aku tau niat kau tu baek. tapi kita kena fikir gak perasaan dia. kalau engkau, macam mana perasaan engkau?"

and i was like alamak. sial la. apasal aku tak tefikir siakkk. "ok ok. a ah betol gak doh". immediately i went to the sealing process to look for ayub. i called him into the maintenance room and apologize. i was in a real regret. aku pulak yang jadi malu. bukan dengan dia je dengan dorang-dorang skali aku jadi malu. ok ah malu lagi aku nak cite sini... later yo.

in fact, it's already late i'm working morning shift kena tidor ni. tadi pegi panceng ikan. lepas panceng maen basketball lepas maen basketball maen futsal dah leteh esok jangan lambat, fifi.